ItachisOkami

Journal 278 I'm being ripped apart form the inside out. He almost found out once and in a way, I'm happy he didn't, but it's getting harder to hide. It is the flaw of my mother's blood. But she refused to die like that. She made sure her body was not taken, but since the curse had to continue, it took something else. Her sanity. He loves me. I know he does. I see the pain in his eyes when I have the faintest problem. And I love him. I do, but I can't tell him about this. It's what hurts the most. Fayore healed me, delayed this sickness the first time, but even she didn't see this coming. I don't even think my father did. Akuma and Amy ha

Journal 257 Seth left home today. I can still remember the first time in hell that I told Baru. He snatched me so fast it scared me into showing him. I was stupid to think he'd ever hurt me. He's been such a good daddy and I know he'd proud of Seth. In all the years I have lived I never imagined being a 'mother'. But now I find myself with more than 9 and another on the way. Nemu was healed by someone Baru knows and I will always be in his debt. My little Nemu will finally be able to run around and smile again. I sense my powers dwindling, I know I sleep a little longer and I know Baru hasn't really noticed. My Baru. That little softball.

Journal 224 I've met Baru again. That dragon has softened. Our meeting was 'violent', to summarize it as kindly as possible, but somehow I don't regret it. Looking back, I know I've had a fucked up life. I've been used, beaten, taking in more ways than one, and cursed more times than I can ever count.But seeing Baru now, I think these things are nothing compared to what I'm going threw at this moment. The day after we met, we acted as if nothing had happened. Sure it was awkward at first but somehow, after a bath in the hot springs and a warm meal, we ended up in bed again, just holding and nuzzling into each other. I should be smarter. I

Journal 197 Still the war continues. Still Lucifer craves Despair. I wonder how the men would react if they found out about leader's love quarrel. In all this time I wouldn't have imagined that Lucifer would be owned by anyone. Even if he is just a weakling. Despair met with him last night and it almost makes me pity Lucifer. The pain in his eyes, his voice cracking as if he tried to keep from crying, if that's even possible. It was sorrowful, to say the least. But Despair only shoved him away again. No wonder Lucifer started this war.... He wants Despair to notice him again, in a pretty futile attempt, to love him. I learned that humans '